If I Must Love Again

I am in love again but this seems so special... my heart was once locked, I stopped being social. I do not know what opened my heart again but I hope this would not end in the usual pain. My desire to love was frustrated by fear... my heart was broken by pains that I could not bear. I wish I could hold back this new emotion but they are like the waves on the ocean. I was made to believe that love was never real but this seems to me like a real deal... I was loved by ladies I do not want to talk about... that I loved them back was a fact I still doubt. This new fire of desire is not just ordinary... it is a love for someone that is extraordinary... I am not in love with a lady, if that's what you think. I am in love with me, please let's have a drink. I once hated myself for my past errors, I was also haunted by some terrible terrors. All those pains and regrets did not go in vain; I must start with myself if I must love again.