I Wish I Had

Line of inquiry: The ego within forced me to resist But now I wish I had effused a love mist With aplomb and flair, just kind of left it there For self-aware souls passing by, who choose to pair Long ago I was not the girl I am today lost in wounds and self inflicted sorrow I was a worldly ghost in a a sea of pain with no recourse to love, no not at all Merely existing in a fast track Universe I worked and slaved all day and night never seeing the lantern light of God that beamed towards my wounded heart Then one day the good Lord found me in a lost and found box of mere pity Oh how I longed to exude love again, the way I did when I was just a child Dropping my ego like a ripened pear I let go and clung to the only love I knew a mist of compassion wrapped me softly and I knew then, that I was healed.