I Wish I Had

“The ego within forced me to resist But now I wish I had effused a love mist With aplomb and flair, just kind of left it there For self-aware souls passing by, who choose to pair”---- Line of inquiry As we roamed under the star-spangled sky, Sharing many a trivial thought I failed to voice my clandestine whim, Carefully structured within my mind’s alcove When words were suddenly broken up With a lump forming in my throat I failed to convey what I meant, In a language explicit for you to grasp. Gazing at each other, as we stood Without uttering a word aloud You failed to notice my saddened eyes, Glistening with tears, about to shed At the end of a pleasant, united jaunt As our roads diverged in opposite tracks We failed to say even a parting word, As a gesture of courtesy, due for both. Now in the twilight of the setting sun When the past has dwindled slowly away We remain in our cloistered cells, Failing to forget what has transpired. How I wish I had expressed myself! Was it my ego or the fear of rejection, Or was it a lack of confidence, not quite sure, That punctured the love mist and prevented us from pairing?