Eileen Manassian Poet Carpe Diem

I Want To Live

I want to live
Not to focus on the end
Or on ENDING it
Not to see what’s wrong but right
Try to see beyond darkness to light
I want to try to dry my tears
To think of the coming years
To make a mark
To be strong
Not give up the fight
I want to live
And even when
I wish for death
There is that voice
That whispers to go on
To survive
To leave something behind
Death will come
Soon enough
In his own time
He will come and call
And take my hand
But till that time
I don’t want to flirt with him
Or be consumed with thoughts
Of joining him too soon
In a bonding embrace

No….I want to live!
I want to laugh
I want to dance
To sing
To write my little heart out
I want to love
I want to make love
With a deluge of passion
That bathes the universe in light
A glowing, pulsating star of the night,
I want to display...every hue of desire
Matching…NO…outdoing the kaleidoscope light show
Of the Aurora Borealis

YES….I want to FEEL
EVERY  SENSATION
I want to experience
Ecstasy
Exhilaration
Elation
Ebullience supreme
Excitement galore
What’s more
I want to taste
On my lips
The saltiness of my own tears
Tears of joy
Of sated desire, but also
Tears of pain
Yes, even pain needs to visit
The home of my heart
For she makes JOY more precious
Happiness more REAL
For joy and pain are siblings
In the family of feelings
They visit at different times
I accept each call
Each visit
Though unexpected 
I will act the host
And try my best
To focus on each visitor
And converse with my heart
And understand with my mind
The reason why 
And THEN… I’ll determine
To go on….

I NEED to go on……
To give and not expect a return
To lavish and ravish
With all I have
With every minute particle of me
TO LOVE….
To love…
Myself
For I need my own acceptance
I crave my own praise
I desire my own kindness
I must train myself to see
My own beauty to believe
I have something to share
I have words to gift
Thoughts that could light up the world
And if not the world
To light up a face
Oh, what grace!!!

I want to live
This moment
NOW
For the fabric of this garment
Is sewn with the thread
Of
E T E R N I T Y

Yes, I want to live...
And I will...
I WILL

Eileen Manassian Ghali

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Paul Callus March 8, 2020 at 4:06 PM You give so many reasons to want to live, Eileen, that I can't imagine you ever wanting to cut life short!! I can feel your heartfelt emotional outpouring. Hugs // paul

Sukmawati Komala February 3, 2014 at 6:17 PM very inspiring deary Eileen :) thank you for sharing your brilliant write :) take care :) Sk

Tim Smith February 3, 2014 at 12:08 PM This is a beautiful gift. It captures the essence of whet we hope to strive for in life..This piece is truly favorite of mine...Hugs Tim Eileen Manassian February 3, 2014 at 12:34 PM Thank you, Tim. I lost my mother....14 years ago. I grew up knowing that she was going to die....I had to watch her deteriorate before my eyes. She suffered from MS. Death has always been something that eats away to my heart and mind.....It takes a great deal for me to be able to focus on life instead as I also suffer from depression. This poem came from my heart. Thanks for the visit.

Christine Phillips February 3, 2014 at 8:43 AM A very sensational poem charged with emotions, conflicts, desires and determination. You grab my attention from start to finish in this piece. Life is truly divine and we must live it to the fullest. Eileen Manassian February 3, 2014 at 12:35 PM Christine...you honor me with your visit. Thank you for the supportive words. They lift my spirit. Hugs

Mohammad Abedin February 2, 2014 at 6:04 PM I enjoyed it Eileen Manassian February 3, 2014 at 12:35 PM So glad you did! :)

Bl Devnath February 2, 2014 at 8:18 AM You are a nice positive thinker and want to see everything through realization, so you have worded nicely "I must train myself to see'. Really I too believe to have the patience until I reach the finest point, as you have said here in this lovely poem. Hugs, loved always, my lovely friend, bl Eileen Manassian February 3, 2014 at 2:50 PM Thank you, BL. I enjoyed reading your insight into my poem. Patience will help us get to our desires and hopes in time. :) Always a pleasure to read your words.

Sarai Virden January 31, 2014 at 4:44 AM Such wisdom in these words. Beautifully written dear one. Hugs XOXOX Eileen Manassian January 31, 2014 at 4:46 AM Thank you for visiting, my dear! :) Hope you are living it up to the max! :)

Lucilla Carrillo January 30, 2014 at 10:10 PM Eileen; this is one of your longest poems, but I enjoyed all the way to the end, I too want to live too. Let's enjoy life now.... Lucilla Eileen Manassian January 31, 2014 at 4:47 AM Thanks, my dear Lucilla. I so appreciate your kind words and visits. Hope you keep dropping by. Yes, we have to live in the NOW. I know.... ;)

Ralph Sergi January 30, 2014 at 5:31 PM Hi Eileen: A pleasure to meet your poem. All the positive adjectives you expounded on will overwhelm Death and leave you alone for awhile. I can almost see you bursting with exuberance as you are writing this poem. Please read my poem about Death (a woman) It's called La Muerta Eileen Manassian January 31, 2014 at 4:55 AM Yes....Exuberance is such a beautiful word...Thank you for using it to describe the state of my mind as I was writing...TRUE! :) I did read your poem...BEAUTIFUL! Don't flirt with La Muerta....Keep her at bay as long as possible! Thanks for the visit.

Harry Horsman January 30, 2014 at 4:32 PM The Master said 'It is far greater to give than receive,,,in others words, my comments are pale in comparison, to your poetry,, but the gift you give to us all, is within you,,,,,and long may you reign Eileen Manassian January 31, 2014 at 4:55 AM Harry....Harry, thank you so much for this beautiful and endearing post. You used all the right words to touch my heart. Bless you. Bless you! Hugs!

Robert Pettit January 30, 2014 at 2:06 PM Live life to the fullest. Do as much as you can before your number is finally drawn. Get up having courage when you face each dawn. Eileen Manassian February 3, 2014 at 12:29 PM Lovely post, Robert. Thank you so much for this encouragement and the lovely visit.

Richard Lamoureux January 30, 2014 at 8:59 AM This is a hopeful hurt. I hope your joy, passion and exuberance far outweigh your sadness. We are indeed sewn within the fabric of eternity and He promises to wipe away our tears. Eileen Manassian February 3, 2014 at 12:30 PM I'm sorry I didn't respond to this post earlier, Richard. Hopeful hurt...interesting phrase you've coined. Yes, we are sewn with the fabric of eternity....Thank you for the visit.

Charmaine Chircop January 30, 2014 at 8:45 AM Lets live and love..dance and sing my dear friend..Yes..Very very beautiful Eileen Manassian February 3, 2014 at 2:55 PM YES YES YES YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!! HUGS to you, my sweetie pie!

Jack Ellison January 30, 2014 at 8:33 AM With all the powers vested in me, dear sweet friend, I grant you all your wishes! LOL Loving hugs, Kenny XOXOX Eileen Manassian February 3, 2014 at 2:56 PM ALL THE POWERS VESTED IN YOU...How darling of you! :) Yes....grant me my wishes, Genie Kenny! ;) Hugs

Chris Hardy January 30, 2014 at 5:28 AM Amazing work....I am so glad I stopped by....chris Eileen Manassian February 3, 2014 at 2:57 PM Thanks, Chris. Glad to have your visit.