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I Want To Live

I want to live Not to focus on the end Or on ENDING it Not to see what’s wrong but right Try to see beyond darkness to light I want to try to dry my tears To think of the coming years To make a mark To be strong Not give up the fight I want to live And even when I wish for death There is that voice That whispers to go on To survive To leave something behind Death will come Soon enough In his own time He will come and call And take my hand But till that time I don’t want to flirt with him Or be consumed with thoughts Of joining him too soon In a bonding embrace No….I want to live! I want to laugh I want to dance To sing To write my little heart out I want to love I want to make love With a deluge of passion That bathes the universe in light A glowing, pulsating star of the night, I want to display...every hue of desire Matching…NO…outdoing the kaleidoscope light show Of the Aurora Borealis YES….I want to FEEL EVERY SENSATION I want to experience Ecstasy Exhilaration Elation Ebullience supreme Excitement galore What’s more I want to taste On my lips The saltiness of my own tears Tears of joy Of sated desire, but also Tears of pain Yes, even pain needs to visit The home of my heart For she makes JOY more precious Happiness more REAL For joy and pain are siblings In the family of feelings They visit at different times I accept each call Each visit Though unexpected I will act the host And try my best To focus on each visitor And converse with my heart And understand with my mind The reason why And THEN… I’ll determine To go on…. I NEED to go on…… To give and not expect a return To lavish and ravish With all I have With every minute particle of me TO LOVE…. To love… Myself For I need my own acceptance I crave my own praise I desire my own kindness I must train myself to see My own beauty to believe I have something to share I have words to gift Thoughts that could light up the world And if not the world To light up a face Oh, what grace!!! I want to live This moment NOW For the fabric of this garment Is sewn with the thread Of E T E R N I T Y Yes, I want to live... And I will... I WILL Eileen Manassian Ghali

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Paul Callus

Date: 3/8/2020 4:06:00 PM

You give so many reasons to want to live, Eileen, that I can't imagine you ever wanting to cut life short!! I can feel your heartfelt emotional outpouring. Hugs // paul

Sukmawati Komala

Date: 2/3/2014 6:17:00 PM

very inspiring deary Eileen :) thank you for sharing your brilliant write :) take care :) Sk

Tim Smith

Date: 2/3/2014 12:08:00 PM

This is a beautiful gift. It captures the essence of whet we hope to strive for in life..This piece is truly favorite of mine...Hugs Tim

Eileen Manassian
Date: 2/3/2014 12:34:00 PM

Thank you, Tim. I lost my mother....14 years ago. I grew up knowing that she was going to die....I had to watch her deteriorate before my eyes. She suffered from MS. Death has always been something that eats away to my heart and mind.....It takes a great deal for me to be able to focus on life instead as I also suffer from depression. This poem came from my heart. Thanks for the visit.

Christine Phillips

Date: 2/3/2014 8:43:00 AM

A very sensational poem charged with emotions, conflicts, desires and determination. You grab my attention from start to finish in this piece. Life is truly divine and we must live it to the fullest.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 2/3/2014 12:35:00 PM

Christine...you honor me with your visit. Thank you for the supportive words. They lift my spirit. Hugs

Mohammad Abedin

Date: 2/2/2014 6:04:00 PM

I enjoyed it

Eileen Manassian
Date: 2/3/2014 12:35:00 PM

So glad you did! :)

Bl Devnath

Date: 2/2/2014 8:18:00 AM

You are a nice positive thinker and want to see everything through realization, so you have worded nicely "I must train myself to see'. Really I too believe to have the patience until I reach the finest point, as you have said here in this lovely poem. Hugs, loved always, my lovely friend, bl

Eileen Manassian
Date: 2/3/2014 2:50:00 PM

Thank you, BL. I enjoyed reading your insight into my poem. Patience will help us get to our desires and hopes in time. :) Always a pleasure to read your words.

Sarai Virden

Date: 1/31/2014 4:44:00 AM

Such wisdom in these words. Beautifully written dear one. Hugs XOXOX

Eileen Manassian
Date: 1/31/2014 4:46:00 AM

Thank you for visiting, my dear! :) Hope you are living it up to the max! :)

Lucilla Carrillo

Date: 1/30/2014 10:10:00 PM

Eileen; this is one of your longest poems, but I enjoyed all the way to the end, I too want to live too. Let's enjoy life now.... Lucilla

Eileen Manassian
Date: 1/31/2014 4:47:00 AM

Thanks, my dear Lucilla. I so appreciate your kind words and visits. Hope you keep dropping by. Yes, we have to live in the NOW. I know.... ;)

Ralph Sergi

Date: 1/30/2014 5:31:00 PM

Hi Eileen: A pleasure to meet your poem. All the positive adjectives you expounded on will overwhelm Death and leave you alone for awhile. I can almost see you bursting with exuberance as you are writing this poem. Please read my poem about Death (a woman) It's called La Muerta

Eileen Manassian
Date: 1/31/2014 4:55:00 AM

Yes....Exuberance is such a beautiful word...Thank you for using it to describe the state of my mind as I was writing...TRUE! :) I did read your poem...BEAUTIFUL! Don't flirt with La Muerta....Keep her at bay as long as possible! Thanks for the visit.

Harry Horsman

Date: 1/30/2014 4:32:00 PM

The Master said 'It is far greater to give than receive,,,in others words, my comments are pale in comparison, to your poetry,, but the gift you give to us all, is within you,,,,,and long may you reign

Eileen Manassian
Date: 1/31/2014 4:55:00 AM

Harry....Harry, thank you so much for this beautiful and endearing post. You used all the right words to touch my heart. Bless you. Bless you! Hugs!

Robert Pettit

Date: 1/30/2014 2:06:00 PM

Live life to the fullest. Do as much as you can before your number is finally drawn. Get up having courage when you face each dawn.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 2/3/2014 12:29:00 PM

Lovely post, Robert. Thank you so much for this encouragement and the lovely visit.

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 1/30/2014 8:59:00 AM

This is a hopeful hurt. I hope your joy, passion and exuberance far outweigh your sadness. We are indeed sewn within the fabric of eternity and He promises to wipe away our tears.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 2/3/2014 12:30:00 PM

I'm sorry I didn't respond to this post earlier, Richard. Hopeful hurt...interesting phrase you've coined. Yes, we are sewn with the fabric of eternity....Thank you for the visit.