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I Vaguely Remember

I vaguely remember when you weren't 
sick.
I try to wrack my mind to recall who 
you once were.
I've always loved you with my whole 
heart.
But to be honest, I really don't know 
you, I do, but I don't.
You have been sick for so long; it hurts
that I can't make you well.
I've prayed that your sickness would
leave and never return.
When I was younger, I didn't understand
your illness because it wasn't physical.
Medication manages and controls your
symptoms, but you’re not well, you’re 
still sick.
I wish I had the chance to really know 
the real you.
I believe the real you is somewhere 
locked inside your mind.
But your debilitating sickness has you 
bound.
Nevertheless, I love you for who you are
now and the person you once were.















02/25/2021

Resubmitted 04/25/2021
Contest: Your Best Free Verse This Year So Far 
Sponsor: John Hamilton

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Andrea Dietrich

Date: 4/27/2021 2:46:00 PM

This is so sad when this kind of thing happens to a loved one . Very feeling poem. Congrats for the win.

Paula Goldsmith

Date: 4/27/2021 9:46:00 AM

Congratulations on your win. WOW!!! What a story/write. You had a great ending. Have a blessed day....................

Marilene Evans

Date: 4/26/2021 11:07:00 PM

Great poem, Alexis. So expressive.

John Hamilton

Date: 4/26/2021 6:46:00 PM

You were wise to enter this one Lexi, you knew it would touch me and it did. Congrats on a great great write and win!

Alexis Y.
Date: 4/27/2021 2:50:00 PM

Hi John, Thanks for allowing older poems to shine. That means a lot coming from you. Every bit of this poem is true. I appreciate my placement in your contest- Alexis

DM Babbit

Date: 2/27/2021 1:44:00 AM

We must be grateful for what we have, the sickness, the understanding, the knowing and not knowing but love is - simply is.

Heidi Sands

Date: 2/26/2021 1:33:00 PM

Alexis, this is so well expressed and written. It is very powerful and shows the impact of such a situation and shines with your unconditional love as well :)

Judy Ball

Date: 2/26/2021 12:03:00 PM

Oh Alexis this hit home. I live with that. We may be getting better though. The doctor thinks it may be his medication and changed it. God Bless, JB

Rico Leffanta

Date: 2/26/2021 10:25:00 AM

It is extremely difficult for some people to recover from the sight of a stray cat, never mind a loved one, yet we survive! Aloha! Rico

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 2/26/2021 8:10:00 AM

This is sad. Yes Sickness can overwhelm the one who is sick and the one who cares for them. Each loses who they were. The sickness is a relentless thief. On the other hand it reveals the essence of who you both are. Those who persevere are truly extrodinary. Hugs Rick.

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

Date: 2/26/2021 7:10:00 AM

Heart rendering write Alexis, sending warm hugs, xomo

Vijay Pandit

Date: 2/26/2021 4:46:00 AM

I hear the trembling my friend--a loved one feeling helpless not being able to do much in face of such an illness. All one can do is offer love--- as your ending lines aptly suggest, Alexis.

Rama Balasubramanian

Date: 2/26/2021 4:14:00 AM

"It hurts that I can't make you well. " - I have been through this and wished I were a doctor. Sad but lot of us go through such situations. Looks true to me. If then I will only say I understand what you are saying. Not easy. Take care, Rama