I should've stayed on the side but I am hiding already

Now my hands rest in my pockets and I stay still and don't bend. You know I still can't see the end, well one thing I sticked on. But still the only thing I wanted to go away. You really did as If you ripped off everything of my body, nothing's there that would describe myself clearly. During that time you ignored me too! Why are you acting like it's my friend fault? Laughing it off as if we couldn't see. I am not sure, if you live here or in the past, Where are you going? You are just watching yourself, Yourself drowning. Let us alone. Please keep it longer by urself it will turn in Wind I promise. Don't you think that such things like ballons in the sky stay there? Are you ruining it like my dad too, telling me it will fall down anyway someday and be away quickly. No one will ever see it ever again. What are you. Just why. When I have the fun, and can laugh even though of visible remarks, why are you mentioning them and ruining my mood? Just don't be there where I am. Don't me anywhere I go.