I Remember It All

I remember the moment I thought that he was just like any other guy. I remember being wrong. I remember loving him so much that even when I was away from him, no guy mattered because he would run through my mind all day everyday. I remember giving it my all. I remember it all like it was only yesterday... I remember crying. A lot. I remember the bad months just as much as I the remember the good months. And I honestly can’t tell you which ones hurt more. I sometimes wish I would forget all the things that make me love him so dearly. But I remember it all like it was only yesterday.. I remember the breakup. I remember feeling so far away from God because I felt like He had taken the only true love I’d ever experienced away from me.The pain was just unbearable. I remember not leaving my bed for three days. I remember crying my heart out. I remember being too weak to stand, too hurt to eat and too emotionally broken to face people. I remember the pain. I miiss him. A lot sometimes. I wish I could move on just like he did. But I'm not as strong as he is. I can't just wake up the next morning and decide to date someone who I like, while I know that my all is still focused on the one I love. I'm still healing. I won't lie, it hasn't been easy. Sometimes I can't sleep. The memories start building up.. The heart starts pounding and tears start falling. It's time I accepted that they are long gone. But as for now... I still remember it all like it was only yesterday I remember it all like it was only yesterday.