I Never Had You At All

Religion smoked a cigarette, while sugar did some drugs, I drank gin and anisette, Heroin gave you hugs. Was it my kleptomania that seemed like such a threat? You'd turn your back for hours, hoarding the internet. Drama was your primal right, vandalism your apogee, you had to have the spotlight, spread your fame for all to see. I was vitriolic, without the wealth I seek, became a workaholic, for seven days a week. Adrenaline was my certain need, you were a voyeur sure, I always wanted faster speed, ***** seemed your only cure. Gambler's chips line all your shelves, I bet on caffeine's sway, you are Santa with steroid elves, shopping - your passion play; we're video games that run ourselves, for twenty-four hours a day. You cut yourself so many times, carving addiction's text, I drown myself with a metered rhyme, before looking for the next. Bulimia made you ascendant, chocolate broke my fall, I thought we were codependent, But I never had you at all.