I Miss You

I'm churning milk out of butter but with you I curdle Cuddled and rolled into corners because there is a space here that hits me in the center of my chest I'm losing breath counting down to when it'll be me in your presence This place here for you I find a darkness and a tomb of your efforts but I am back expecting to start where we finished so I can get rest I want to inhale your purchased new scent and listen to stories I want to be filled off of your company so I skip meals until you're gone and I find myself hungry I want to pretend, want to pretend that I'm not listening, that these moments are meant only to take up time Want to watch you adjust your load so you can carry mine And what can I say when you ask of my tries? That I've answered? How can you measure my affection when it's what I'm too scared to lose? Come fill this spot here before my body collapses without the support I need your figure, height looming over me And now in some room your concentrated on things that don't concern me when everything I am concerns you I don't know how I hide it so well don't know where I tuck it but I know the silence in this room is beating into my drums and I want you to stop it