I Miss You

I miss you I missed you before you were gone I missed you when we made eye contact for the fifth time as I glanced around the room, our eyes somehow always meeting I missed you when we walked along the small brick plaza outside of my house, the embers of the bonfire brightly burning I missed you when we shared our stories of loss, our stories of grief And I missed you when we sang Dua Lipa songs in the small room in the library I missed you unironically complimenting my voice even though we both knew I couldn’t sing for I missed you when we’d laugh in class Or when you made me the green, purple and white picture frame that still hangs in my room I missed you when you drove away for the last time Tears formed in your eyes but I had already cried enough over you I missed you when we kissed It was over a dare but it still meant something to me It meant that for once in my life I was genuinely content You were my everything My weakness My strength My joy My darkness You were everything before I even knew what everything was It was childish It was childish because we were only children But it being so didn’t mean that it was any less real It was probably the closest to reality that I’ll ever get And I still cry over you I still count the years it’s been since I’ve seen you I still count the people I’ve found that even come close to filling the hole that you left And there have been a couple And those who have done so will be cherished dearly And I will be okay And so will you And if there was anything that either of us could do I know that we would But there is nothing Life draws people apart Even people that shouldn’t have ever left each others sides