I lacked emotions where others concerned

Back approximately half my life ago dissociative disorder if qualified to self diagnose mein kampf psychological state... I lacked emotions where others concerned. That refrain replayed itself, when wife picked up (like a broken record), where parents left off before they entered another dimension (maybe the fifth) of space and time (hosted courtesy Rod Serling), where yours truly (me) repeated until blue in the face don't hock my chinik to the missus lest a potential crime scene draws The Mod Squad. Though she ceased reiterating magnum opus of colorful epithets towards me, daunting effort well nigh impossible to ignore daily USDA over dosage stinging derogatory, heavily re: tar did psyche stunted, wrathful verbal artillery fire remains with me to this moment in tandem, and keep lock step company with malicious noxious obloquy pilloried, quotidian rate sundering unsung vitality within zealous aspiring bookish chap. Daily eruptions from glowering Hercules inundated, jack-knifed, linkedin fin de sic cull nursing offal personal quaking resentment stewing toxic watershed unleashed veritable, red hot wrath, undermining vivacity within yawping seething, tormenting uber vitality wreaking yours truly x screw she hating, killing motives of papa querulously, rabidly scathing, terrorizing sole son, who for better part of marriage underwent lighter version of invectives cutting me down to size, asper zero self worth, though calmer days prevailed between  huzz-band and spouse, yet nonetheless indelible imprimatur undeniably etched overtop palimpsest raw hide of self esteem. Twas quite recently, this heir indubitably coaxed sea legs, more so regarding self acceptance felt emboldened, empowered, and emancipated from invisible shackles bounding (akin to Gulliver) a dire straightened situation. Thru auspices of divine help (then Lower Merion counseling offices) professional psychiatrists psychologists quelled retaliatory spiteful treatment upon banshee hushed heads (high school peers, parents and fiendish ghoul- lash humans) intently joyously kindled, lamentable mean name calling (though sticks and stones ne’er hurled venality broke lovely bones), the sheer redundancy to remain passive internalizing verbal cut throat, villainous wicked yik yaks zapped ambition to fight back, and desire to live. Characteristics against cross purposes predated onset of bullies took delight feigning Brutus Maccabeus lashing at diminutive, harried, and introverted Capricorn incessantly lambasted, ostracized, and repulsed from LivingSocial hermetically sealing within bubble wrap, could not thwart nor deflect piercing poison tipped daggers puncturing outermost covalent shell, reminiscent pock marks from yesterday. Though cessation of banal, devilish frothing at mouth nastiness no longer prevails, an inordinate number of bumped ugly chronologically bereft experiences, detached, estranged, fostered knee-jerk reactions against socialization, brought to light this moment pregnant revelation no need to discern what cauterized alienation. Seeds of white lily begot ordinary individual (now middle aged male lxv passages around black hole sun) accepts schizoid personality disorder born free and clear within utero bolstered by external forces finds me aware essential core being alive absent til death do me part.