Nompilo Lady Fair Cele Poet I do not know?

I Kept It

so i kept it
9 months in me
we connected 
everyday i had to make sure i was happ so it wouldnt be affected
sleepless nights feeling sick and it was because of it
sometimes id regret changing my mind on having it aborted
and everytime i did
it would kick
slowly joy would run deep in my heart
even though i didnt want it
it chose me to be its mom
an ammature
unemployed,confused,young girl
with no direction.
i kept it
i have nothing visible to give to it
just my love
which is not pure enough
for a gift like it.
i kept it
but i lost me
i became such a mess that the only thing that rang in my head was death
i sat down and depression sat next to me
my last thought was 
"im going to keep it,give birth to it but im not going to stay with it"
i was unfit to mother it
and so after holding it 
i kissed it
hugged it
and i left it
my son ...
i left you 
in the arms of my mom
who's going to love you
i thought i was going to better for you as an angel and so i went to heaven and left you.

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Skat A January 19, 2016 at 9:20 PM NOMPILO, I really enjoyed this poem thanks for sharing **SKAT**

Eve Roper October 5, 2014 at 5:24 PM So many girls go through these feelings,Charmaine is right God leaves no one alone. eve

Charmaine Chircop October 5, 2014 at 4:26 PM I am favouring this gem.It gives me goosebumps cause I know these situations really exist.Depression along a pregnancy,feeling unsufficient to be a mother.If only these mothers can ask.help and be given help just in time,they will pass over that dark patch and realize what a gift they have,and that God leaves no one alone..especially innocent children..or women bearimg a new life on this earth.Powerful. Nompilo Lady Fair Cele October 6, 2014 at 2:21 AM thank you ....thanks for taking your time and reading this