I Hate It

hate the way I feel every time that I hear your name… But I know that things can never be the same… I hate that you can still make me want you… I can’t help but wonder if maybe our love really was or could be true… I hate that I look at your picture and get tears in my eyes… I wonder if everything I have heard is really just lies… I hate that you hold someone else every night… I wish that everything would have worked out just right… I hate that I know we will never be together… The pain inside me feels like hurricane weather… Everything is blowing around inside… But I have figured out how to hide… Though it hurts all over, I try to push away my heart… The pain rushes over my every part… I hate that I love you with so much of my heart... I hate that this is the way I have felt from the start... I hate that I cannot tell you that you are my love... I hate that the worst, along with all of the above.