I Hate Being Trans

I hate being trans. I hate repeating my name i hate cutting my hair I hate it when people tell me "they wish they had my chest" and i hate it when people say to "look my best" but my best isnt a suit and tie my best is a dress. i hate looking at people and thinking "i wonder if theyd be into guys" i hate looking at boys and thinking "I wish i was him sometimes" I hate feeling unsafe in my body like watching a scary movie and wanting to turn away wanting to turn it off but you can't. the tears i cried when i realized id never be the same because im not a girl. no, not with this name. I hate living in fear of being shot when i go outside i hate the world i live in and i hate myself. and i hate being trans.