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I Felt An Ache Inside

A frightened boy, I felt an ache inside for not liking girls as other boys did. And I still remember the nights I cried; for feeling feelings that the Lord forbid. Consumed by a relentless ache, I hid my feelings, for they left me petrified. And I wasn't brave like a normal kid; a frightened boy, I felt an ache inside. Fate had stripped my fragile ego of pride, my inner self was kept under a lid. And I felt ostracized and pushed aside, for not liking girls as other boys did. I gravely feared disobeying God's bid and often ran into the woods to hide. But facing a slippery slope, I slid, and I still remember the nights I cried. I'd contemplate committing suicide; when I was alone, somewhere off the grid. And within my soul, this ache amplified; feeling the feelings that the Lord forbid. I dreamt of privateers like Captain Kidd, and yet, no one wanted me on their side. It seemed that the world wanted me to skid; no one showed they cared if I lived or died, I felt an ache inside.

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Date: 4/28/2021 8:38:00 AM
Emile, congratulations on your win in my Writing Prompt -Ache- Challenge with your wonderful Rondeau Redouble poem, the things that happen to us as children remain forever, well done, love _Constance
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Emile Pinet
Date: 4/28/2021 9:18:00 AM
Thanks Constance, I appreciate your comments and the placement my friend, Emile.
Date: 4/27/2021 7:49:00 PM
Beautifully written with so much grace. Your lines are thick with craft and fascination. Great work.
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Emile Pinet
Date: 4/28/2021 6:59:00 AM
Thanks Funom, I appreciate your comments my friend, Emile.
Date: 4/25/2021 8:17:00 AM
Wow, Emile, what an awesome poem! You have laid bare the feelings of so many of us who have struggled with who we really are deep inside our entire lives. It starts with that deep ache when we are just little kids. I can't thank you enough! I'm marking this a FAV!
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L Milton Hankins
Date: 4/25/2021 4:32:00 PM
Thanks so much, Emile.
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Emile Pinet
Date: 4/25/2021 8:24:00 AM
Thank you so much Milt, we are no longer kids and we don't have to feel ashamed or scared, you comments are greatly appreciated my friend, Emile.

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