I Eat

I eat to numb the pain my mom wants me to be what she sees in herself she worships the mirror cause it blesses her reflection I wasn't that lucky therefore I eat to lose the image I should be according to dear mother Every crumb that my hands touches every taste that my mouth savors I smile cause she can't control this she can't make me like her when the scale says 200 She may disapprove I may get stared at but knowing that i'm different knowing that i'm not just a clone of my sisters makes me feel unique even if I have to be called big boned denise that will be ok I'd give Anything to not be the kind of mother she was to me even my body