I Dreamed

He was in my dreams Everything You had in mind for me Not my choices, awkward, backwards, shy The truth in his eyes, heart- You are there For me!? I thought the day would never be Never this easy, how could it be Missions, music, kids, You, what else …Too quiet, I didn’t know him at all The Kiss- My heart now set aside where no one else can reach One instant’s joy, pure, heaven sent Laughing, crying, filling me, I remember Still today as if it were yesterday It must be the Lord’s hand on my heart I can’t question and torture my self wondering I can’t pray and wonder what is happening He was in my dreams Real and in front of me But not to be He didn’t know Wasn’t the man The man I dream of will love the Lord, of course But in this world will fight for me Desire me, long for me as I for him Waiting for me, will recognize me and see me Will look at me intensely, loving me Knowing my soul without words Knowing my heart by my eyes Knowing my needs with his heart Not clueless and wasting my time So why do I still believe? The hope won’t die, still attached To the one I’d like to leave behind The kiss washes over me threatening To hold me in that dream. Not even that Spectacular in itself, but hooking me For what it was, a dream for blessing From the Lord, a Godly Man, a gift for me Attached to one who was not the one Not the one to love me like I dreamed. Yet I believed. And he hangs on wanting me, a friend Why Lord? Tell him “Use your head! Her friendship is reserved for true blue Girls, confiding, trusting, leaning on each other Girls who will not fall in love with her Or her with them. Never hurt her! Always understand and know and feel Her heart, her pain, her joy They’ve been there, on another road They have the same hopes and dreams- not you. Your future wife would not like, a friend Of yours like that. Don’t you see Crossing wires and misplaced hearts Loyalties of the wrong role Chances for heartache and loss You must stay clear of any possible wrong!” My heart aches to think that you will leave All my dreams ripped away from me And as I think they were based on nothing real My heart objects, still feeling what it feels Beyond words, the unrequited love Beyond reason, tears dripped, time spent, gone Alone, dear Lord, hear me and save Help me move on and leave this lost Give me strength to say again “I dream”