I Don'T Want To

I don't want to fall like this again and get a little crush like this again and learn later that it's not reciprocated things like that have me so jaded and it's what makes me so afraid I'm getting an inkling that these butterflies might start fluttering again soon but I never want to get my hopes up cause I always end up looking like the fool who knows he might already be snatched up or maybe I will fall so hard that when he drops me it hurts I don't want to fall like this I don't want to imagine his kiss or even dream about the idea of how good it would be cause I've been let down for so long I don't want to give my heart a chance I shouldn't fill my head with these silly shenanigan cause a person like me can't handle let downs and if I fall and risk it all will I land softly or on the floor? I just don't want to get hurt again So I say again I don't want to fall like this but I can't help it