I Dont Understand You Father

Most of people i am sure asking why God oh why death , sickness , illness ,sadness ,suffering ? Why You allow to exist this world if Adam and Eve disappointed You that much ? Why even bother from the start before creating man Come on now You must have known! You are Omnipotent You must have known that man will disappoint You before you made him.. ,us. You know Father, the only excuse i find for you if i dare, that Your Love ,need of creating man was stronger than your loneliness? You know, just thought of woman and man .when they fall in love and have a baby, nothing could stop them to carry on , allow to live not to abort , let it live and love . Even if they knew from doctors ,baby will be blind or defected ,ill ,... I would abort i am sorry I would ! I wouldn't hope for cure ,or wait for miracle , knowing now that miracle its a rare thing and like lottery might happen might not. Am i wrong or do I sin thinking and dare talking to You like that ? you are the Judge. i am sorry if it was a sin to think and to talk to You like that . Forgive me please and be blessed and bless us . Thank you.