I Don'T Know Why

How four little words could break in inside, with everything I have lived through, "I don't know why"?. The answer you gave me that day, the day I questioned the way I was raised. My life up until then was now just an illusion, everything that happened, I thought happened with reason. You were the parent, and I was your child, and you have no reasons for that lifestyle. You always boasted friends how you raised me right, teaching me the skills I would need in life, my sons a survivor just like me, your little trophy you wanted everyone to see. I sat there stunned, I couldn't believe my ears, all the pain and torment over the years, Neglected, rejected and beaten all the time, all because, I don't know why? I DON'T KNOW WHY??? How those four little words changed my life, now my obsession is to know why. Because not knowing why is a cop out in my eye's, unlike you mother, I will stand accountable for my life. M.Mahauariki © 2012