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I Don'T Know and What If

I don't know I don't know I don't know Let it sink in I don't know the answer I don't know who you are I don't know myself I don't know how to get there I don't know her I don't know you that well I don't know the next step I don't know the answer Or maybe I do What if I am pretending What if not knowing is my way of controlling you Not having to take responsibility What if I just want to see what you know What if I am practicing to become a politician Or maybe it's true I don't know I don't know who you are I would like to Really I would What if we spent more time together I think that would help What if you opened up a bit more What if I listened more That's not always easy I'm still trying to figure out myself That's right I don't know myself There are times I think I do When I think I have figured me out What if I'm deluding myself What if I can't handle the truth What if I need some time alone, to figure it out What if I don't know, how to get there from here I could ask for directions Then what kind of man would I be What if it would be okay, to question myself To be able to say I don't know I don't have the answers What if like you, I'm just trying to figure it out What if, I know myself better than I think What if it's my way, of protecting myself When I was young A girl said "I don't know you that well" Still she wanted to be with me Not because she wanted to know me better It was a hunger we both felt I don't know her anymore I didn't know her then What if I had said no Had not gone down that road to losing myself What if I had waited Waited, till I knew myself Just a little better I don't know And yes sometimes I do What if "I don't know" is the excuse I used To do the things I wanted to do What if by saying, "I don't know the next step" I wasn't responsible I didn't have to take the blame I could have waited But I didn't want to I don't know I don't know But What if I did What if I do I don't know But What if What if it's all nothing but a game I don't know Still round and round I go What if I stopped I don't know I just don't know!

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Agony Aiane

Date: 11/22/2016 2:56:00 PM

hmm.

Arthur Vaso

Date: 11/28/2014 4:04:00 PM

I Just dont know how to tell you this, but another brilliant piece of poetry here!

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/28/2014 4:07:00 PM

My favourite humorist. So good to have you amongst the living. Thanks Artur.

Timothy Hicks

Date: 11/25/2014 5:43:00 PM

It's a humbling experience to admit that you don't know. But also there are times we say, I don't know, just to keep wearing the cloak of indifference. To admit to knowing is to risk possible conflict, and it scares us. Your poetry is very therapeutic to read, because it tugs at the parts of the soul that most people veer away from - but is there nonetheless.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/26/2014 7:31:00 AM

Thankyou Timothy, that means alot to me.

Monterey Sirak

Date: 11/24/2014 7:43:00 AM

You do ask the tough questions. We are experts at hiding from ourselves, hiding behind barriers we erect, and convincing ourselves we just don't know.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/24/2014 8:29:00 AM

Isn't that the truth. Thanks for pondering my thoughts.

Carrie Richards

Date: 11/23/2014 10:11:00 AM

This is the kind of poem I know so well..... If I am not presuming too much, I think I know it came spilling out from your heart, to your finger-tips, to the typewritten words, almost without control....without you even knowing what was inside yourself? Until reading it back...and then saying.....whew! Where did that come from?.......Am I even close? I felt this deeply!

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/23/2014 10:28:00 AM

Yes, it took me where it took me. Thanks Carrie.

Kelly Deschler

Date: 11/23/2014 1:32:00 AM

Being shy, I would always say "I don't know" when I was afraid to share my opinion, for fear of what someone would think of me. But, now I do know myself, and who I am is okay.... This is a very deep write with so much to ponder. Excellent work, Richard!

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/23/2014 8:38:00 AM

Getting in trouble a lot when I was a kid, saying "I don't know" seemed an everyday occurrence with me. I'm pleased by your thoughtful response Kelly.

Kayod5 Kayode

Date: 11/22/2014 10:11:00 PM

You do know Richard only the urge to know more authors this,but who will contest it with you that millions hide under " I don't know" to avoid responsibility or exploit others ? You now see why we respect you here...talent Richard, talent!

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/23/2014 8:40:00 AM

I am humbled by your comment and visits Kayode.

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 11/22/2014 8:15:00 PM

gosh, this has a name, when you just write what comes in your mind, but I forgot what they call it. I was thinking it had to do with a moral question that was mentioned inside the poem. I wonder if got that right. it is very interesting how it just keeps going and still ends up I just don't know!

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/23/2014 8:45:00 AM

I do feel I know myself but there are things I am constantly learning about myself. I am an open person yet there are some things I hide even from myself. In the end the only one who truly knows is God and I am thankful he resides in my heart.

Laura Breidenthal

Date: 11/22/2014 4:13:00 PM

A great poem filled with deep honesty. A very touching piece here. Thanks for sharing. : ) "There are times I think I do When I think I have figured me out What if I'm deluding myself" Surely I can relate. Awesome work. Always, Laura

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/23/2014 8:46:00 AM

It means a lot to me that you have taken time to ponder my thoughts. I thank you Laura.

Tim Smith

Date: 11/22/2014 3:28:00 PM

Many times I wonder if I really know myself as well...excellent..left me to ponder

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/23/2014 8:47:00 AM

If you read my response to Andrea you will know some of my thoughts on the subject. Thanks for reading Tim.

Eileen Manassian

Date: 11/22/2014 11:13:00 AM

I don't know either.... I really enjoyed reading through this, Richard. Will we ever know ourselves? I really don't know...

Eileen Manassian
Date: 11/22/2014 3:02:00 PM

That last bit was tongue in cheek! ;)

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/22/2014 2:10:00 PM

Some of us know ourselves better than others but I believe it is an ongoing process.

Jan Allison

Date: 11/22/2014 11:12:00 AM

Thought provoking write Richard - two questions we ask ourselves and wonder if we really made the right decision but I guess it is the only way we learn is by making decisions and sticking by them - right or wrong it is a learning curve for us all. Hugs Jan xx

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/22/2014 2:12:00 PM

hopefully a curve and not a boomerang that nails us in the back of the head *lol*. Thanks Jan, hugs back to you.

Charmaine Chircop

Date: 11/22/2014 9:18:00 AM

I can't explain the way this poem made me scrutinize myself Richard.What if I'm in this battle eith myself of Knowing and not knowing..At least now Im not alone who have these kind of debates with my soul.A favourite!Charma

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 11/22/2014 9:44:00 AM

Thanks Charmaine, I had fun playing with this one. Thanks for being the first to comment. I have had several reads and no comments so I was wondering if I missed the mark. Hugs Rick.