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I Do This Because I Care

It’s breaking my heart but the truth I must withhold You accused me of lying but you cannot be told I am trying to protect you from news that is bad When you saw me today you were mad oh so mad Some things are better for you not to know You have got dementia and that is your foe I wish I could share the burden in my heart It’s been a tough journey it tore me apart If things were different I would share The reason I do this is because I care If I told you the truth you would be blue The reason I don’t tell is my love for you Jan Allison 29th May 2014

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Jslambert Mister Roboto

Date: 8/3/2014 4:48:00 AM

almost forgot the 7 rate for depth and honesty!~

Jan Allison
Date: 8/3/2014 5:07:00 AM

The truth behind these lines is my dad was diagnosed with cancer in May and I withheld the news from mum as I felt it was dad's place to tell her. Sadly in June we discovered he is now terminally ill but mum is now aware and we are coping well - he was 90 yesterday! Thanks for your continued support:-) Hugs jan xxx

Jslambert Mister Roboto

Date: 8/3/2014 4:47:00 AM

I commend you for the awesome poetry and relentless community building skills here on the Soup!~

Jan Allison
Date: 8/3/2014 5:02:00 AM

Mr Roboto that is such a lovely comment. I do try and read as widely as I can here to support other poets and hope they will reciprocate. Sadly as your poem today shows the site has issues and until these are addressed they soup will be rancid! Hugs jan xxx

Ettie Christian-Bowling

Date: 6/1/2014 9:03:00 PM

Very beautiful poem darling :)-Love Ettie

Jan Allison
Date: 6/2/2014 1:12:00 AM

Thanks for the lovely comment Ettie. Hugs Jan xx

Jake Ponce

Date: 5/31/2014 9:02:00 AM

There really are circumstances warranting therapeutic use of silence. I understand how you feel, Jan.

Jan Allison
Date: 5/31/2014 9:11:00 AM

Thanks Jake I knew you would understand. Hugs as ever, Jan xxxx

John Pen

Date: 5/30/2014 3:07:00 AM

Stories better left untold?.........as long as the concealment doesn't eat you inside

Jan Allison
Date: 5/30/2014 3:12:00 AM

There are some things I have to withhold yet its eating my heart but I have to be strong - to tell her would do no good. Hugs Jan xxx

Darren Watson

Date: 5/29/2014 11:25:00 PM

Just you make sure you take some time to look after you . You are going to need all the strength you can muster

Jan Allison
Date: 5/30/2014 1:55:00 AM

We have got a short break booked in August - I can't wait! Hugs as ever Jan xxxxx

Jack Horne

Date: 5/29/2014 3:28:00 PM

hearfelt and hearttbreaking write, my friend

Jan Allison
Date: 5/29/2014 3:43:00 PM

Thanks Jack its incredibly tough some days. Hugs Jan xxx

Tim Smith

Date: 5/29/2014 2:01:00 PM

One great thing when my Dad had dementia would be the stories that he told...They would be from 30 or 40 years ago but he told them like they just happened...Beautiful Jan...hugs Tim

Jan Allison
Date: 5/29/2014 2:09:00 PM

Mum dwells on the past at the moment it is mainly negative she really has deteriorated since being in the home hope dad out soon and they can be reunited. Hugs as ever Jan xxxx

Anne-Lise Andresen

Date: 5/29/2014 1:14:00 PM

- For love's sake - "White Lies" - A touching and very well written poem, Jan - Thanks for the nice visit on my last poem. - Have a great day - oxox // Anne-Lise :)

Jan Allison
Date: 5/29/2014 2:08:00 PM

Yes Anne Lise If I think of it as little white lies It may make it easier - thanks for that suggestion :-) Hugs Jan xxx