I Couldn’t Find Myself In The Mix

I couldn’t find myself in the mix, My reflection got lost in the middle, Have I still the face of a kid? Life doesn’t play by the rules, Don’t resist, Driving my mind with a complexion, Who am I kidding, A complexion I ain’t even trying to fix. I tried to rewind on my approach, But pothole pits just kept slowing me down. I grew up a product of my home town, I did, A father’s torment was my growth, How? Haven’t seen him in a minute, He conducts the instruments that make my mind spin. I fantasise the oddest, Dreaming of being lowered down, Six feet underground. I don’t understand these thoughts, ‘That’s the point’ he thinks. Dissociating from this life I won’t miss, However you cope with this. You, Your problems, Don’t amend me to Your guest lists. Celebrate clarity with a toast, Liquid meets lips, A tender kiss. But I’ve no one else in the mix, Friends barely know what this feeling is. Spent a week alone on the coast. Everyday; I Guess, Was bliss.