I Can'T Seem To Move On From Fifteen

Let me tell you the exact time you broke me Left alone in a place so strange Bullied me to the death of me Turn upside down flush my dreams down the toilet Kicked me in the nuts everyday Throw spit wads at the heart of me Turn this innocence into hurt Question my self worth Fell for a girl had no confidence in myself to tell her These points these traumas in my life Dictated my path My scars are so deep freshly cut to this day You took a child and turn him into a monster You took what he felt and created these poems I've never ever wrote about me I've never told you all about me now I am a wreck the child in me wants to be free In those years of school you murdered a boys chance to succeed You bullied me to the brink of true defeat I cant and wont forget Those names Jason, Dennis, Renee, Scott and more. I will never venture forth to any type of reunion I have never been able to forgive or forget I was bullied i was crushed This person here and now has never healed I want so much to put you through what you did to me this child this boy who could have had so much potential Now i try to recover and not fear everything Not displace those i love But i have no love for myself You the Bully taught me that I cant seem to unteach that I can't seem to move on from 15. 32 years later this is the the true effect of being bullied