I Can'T Seem To Move On From Fifteen

Let me tell you the exact time you broke me
Left alone in a place so strange
Bullied me to the death of me 
Turn upside down flush my dreams down the toilet
Kicked me in the nuts everyday
Throw spit wads at the heart of me
Turn this innocence into hurt
Question my self worth
Fell for a girl had no confidence in myself to tell her
These points these traumas in my life
Dictated my path 
My scars are so deep freshly cut to this day
You took a child and turn him into a monster
You took what he felt and created these poems
I've never ever wrote about me
I've never told you all about me now
I am a wreck the child in me wants to be free
In those years of school you murdered a boys chance to succeed
You bullied me to the brink of true defeat
I cant and wont forget 
Those names Jason, Dennis, Renee, Scott and more.
I will never venture forth to any type of reunion
I have never been able to forgive or forget
I was bullied i was crushed
This person here and now has never healed
I want so much to put you through what you did to me this child this boy who could have had so much potential
Now i try to recover and not fear everything
Not displace those i love
But i have no love for myself
You the Bully taught me that 
I cant seem to unteach that
I can't seem to move on from 15.
32 years later this is the the true effect of being bullied
Copyright © | Year Posted 2023


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