I Cant Hold Back the Tears

My heart is bleeding and my spirit is burning Day light breaks and births another day And I kneel down, and pray for you to come my way I could not hold back the tears When I turn around and you weren’t there I could not hold back the tears When I saw you climbing up the stairs I have waited so long for you to get a breakthrough And my dream has finally come true I could see you waving to the gigantic crowd And the entire world was saluting you You have made it through the ups and down And everyone is celebrating all over the town I have traveled all this way to see you But I couldn’t be with you, The secret service was all around you I could not hold back the tears When I see all the pain you had to bear I could sense your presence in the room But when I reached out to you I could not touch you Your perfume spread its fragrance everywhere Melting hearts far and near, Your strength and courage has removed my anguish And filled my space with a precious gift I am happy for you but I still want to see you A few moments of fantasy has caused so much agony, Can’t you hear me crying inside you? I have this unsettled feeling that is eating me up It has nothing to do with what is going on inside me It’s just that I want to hear directly from you I am tired or reading signs and symbol I know that they are accurate but they often make me fret Every time when I have to move to a new place it is difficult for me to choose and I feel nervous It is that part of me that is buried deep down inside It is that part of me that wants to go all the way and conquer the world in a different way Not with guns and bullets but with love and a special gift Marco polo and Christopher Columbus explored the world in their time To gather the evidence with much intelligence They were rewarded for their valor and bravery And it made them feel very happy. I seek no such acclamation; I just want your adoration, and true admiration I have so much to share but sometimes I feel that you don’t care Not one phone call, email, or message to indicated that you are there, sometimes I just can’t figure you out And I have to wonder what you are about Sometimes my heart is over anxious and I want to shout I am used to this life and I am not lonely I am just longing to be by your side I want to get a direct word from you to help me to go through I do not often reveal the side of me that makes me happy Sometimes I laugh and sometimes I cry when I am happy But the distance between us pose a big challenge for me From sunrise to sun set my I can feel you moving inside me And that heat won’t leave me; summer is all over my body When I gazed at your smiling eyes and I often hear your soul cry And I can still see the childhood innocence in your beautiful face And the vision that we used to share, we can now embrace I just want to sit at the table with you and kiss you I can’t hold back the tears.