I Believe

You are constantly there when I don’t want you to be, You are a part of me, a big part of me And you stay with me all the time. You are like a shadow in the darkness of the night. I try to get rid of you, to help you, But you don’t want to go; you don’t want to leave me. I have little hope that you will get better, no hope. I believe things will not be the same again I had my whole life planned. Now it is not in my hands, the dream of crossing the finish line. I wanted my dreams to become a reality But you came, and you broke me. I was not the same again. I knew I would live to regret it; trying everything, so you didn't have to. I tried things that I thought would help, But they didn't. You stay the way you are; you are still a part of me My tears didn’t show in the rain- they were cold, Just like the rain in a storm. The flowers are all faded now; they are dying, without any hope The sun is rising, but I can’t see it. When am I going to get rid of you? When am I going to get a break? To be separated from you? You are controlling my life, I want to live on my own; my own life, But you are getting in the way. I can’t do anything without you. You are like my shadow; constantly attached. Everything reminds me of you- Seeing people do what I want to do To pass that line The line that tells me that it is all over; that my dream is complete. There is nothing that I can say to you, To help you understand what you make me feel, Even all the pain and tears I cry and still you never say goodbye, I now know how far you go to get me to notice you, I do, I do notice you. I notice you all the time. Do you know what its like with the pain? The aches? The screams? Or the broken dreams? Everything reminds me of you- Seeing people do what I want to do To pass that line The line that tells me that it is all over. You walked with me, like the footprints from my path But you didn't make me happy. What if I got told that this was meant to be, that you were meant to stay? What then? What would I do? Would I still believe? I dont want to be searching forever Just to find the answer. I think I am dreaming, until I wake Then you are there again. I believe I cant wait a lifetime, Just for you to disappear But I know that I need to keep what's left, My hope just like the lonely star in the midnight sky, The hope of knowing that you won’t be with me forever And that I will be fine without you...