I am greater than I was
Joy and smiles characterized the atmosphere to meet my arrival.
Given an identity and welcomed with a bitter and a soft taste.
Deaf to the excitement around me, crying was all i did
never realizing those were the two sides of the journey i have just began.
A time of plenty and a time of sucess is what should be feared.
As far as i can cast my mind back we struggled but finally fortune hit us.
There came the arrival of a new son who i will cherish as a brother forever.
We had it all and wallowed with happiness and suppressed all worries.
Then the dark days came and winter met us with cold feet,
we struggled, we fought, we prayed and we prevailed.
Yet seems winter laid it cold and icy fingers on the King before its defeat.
A mind full of frustration and a heart racing with beats
was all i felt when daddy died.
"do you think i will be here forever"
kept rigging in my ears for those were his words
anytime i screwed up.
i took a deep breath full of pain and anxiety,
And cried out uncontrollably "strenght is all i ask for,Lord".
Mummy couldnt handle it and brother crumbled for a while,
A house full of happines has lost its lights and now foresees darkness.
But time heals,
As if his departure was a blessing i became stronger than before.
Steady and firm were my steps and silence became my ally.
As infectious as it was, my new light shone and touched my family.
Things went right from that day onwards.
Mummy became like a super human and cared for us, encouraged us and prepped us never to fall in the rest of the journey that laid ahead.
She is the still the angel and most beautiful woman on earth with no doubt.
Live life, laugh and live with no regrets were the lessons i picked up on the road.
And though i am not certain of whats about to happen next,i still ask for strenght to continue to do whats right and neccessary in the rest of this unpredictable journey.
For even if i stumble and fall i will rise for i have become so numb to deafeat.
So today as i complete another orbit around my sun,
I have come far on a rough road yet never crumbled.
With each day passing knowing its just a matter of time,
to be the man i have always wanted to be.
For tonight i am greater than i was.
Copyright © Prince Henry Nibenang | Year Posted 2019