Hurting Inside...I Need Self Love

why does love have to be so strong? why do I always feel so wrong? I have to be honest, i can't live this lie, I don't want to be alive, and i don't know why. Why does love have to hurt so much? why do I feel this way, trapped and such? I just want to run; run far away, yet I have this feeling that i need to stay. why do i want to break down and cry? why do i sometimes want to die? Is this a normal feeling? or is it just me? i can't seem to make up my mind, but i want to be free. Free of this life, free of this pain. I wanna feel something other than rain. I am lost in a world of confusion, to scared to let anyone in. I need some guidance, please will you help me? Bring me back to life again, where i feel normal, be my friend so i can talk to you, so i can cry on your shoulder and get out everything; everything that i feel is so horrible. Help me, help me, please set me free, Let me want life, help me want to be me.....