Hurting Heart

She didnt even remember my birthday ... Shows how special i am.. I feel im just another vague memory.. Cast adrift at sea.. Only i i wish i could loose my memory I keep pretending i can handle everything But on the inside it's tearing me to pieces Bit by bit each day And life just slowly fades away Nobody sees my tears or cares to wash them away The one i needed most..im surprised she remembered my true name Take your time she says.. I need time she says.. Saying im the one playing it like a game But im the one that feels she cant commit And indecisiveness and evasion is the name Of her game Seeing her tell everyone she loves them but me for her birthday.. Drives a knife in my heart down to the belly of my stomache I feel like im a zombie inside No hope is for me Forsakened and left in a tree Oh how it brings back memories. No way to know if she really loves me still Or she is the one playing with me But all i know is ut hurts my soul Because i never win with people A piece of my heart remains desolate And sometimes i feel it will forever be No matter how hard i try I always die Just wish she would give me some assurance Instead of leaving me in dark.. I dont want to be in the dark anymore So much of my life has been.. Its like a handle without a door.. As my heart hits the floor Bruising again and again until it hurts no more