Hurt

Here I am alone again I'm hurting now Got to get over the pain somehow That has taken over me For so long now Yet still the heartache lives on Don't know if it will ever be gone Tears are uncontrollably falling For you and only you I upon my knees Would come crawling I keep calling Only to not hear you Do you rally want me gone from you life? Or like me, are you scared to Afraid that you again may fall? Isn't love all the matters after all? I'm afraid I'll never Talk to you anymore That I may not get to see you As I have before Just tell me am I that much of a bother Am I that much of a chore Don't leave me out here knocking on your door I know moments pass And time moves on But deep inside me for so long I've felt the love that was between us Is not gone It's always been there Waiting until once again We were ready to share For each other we've always cared But there's something more here I really can't explain it I've never felt this for anyone ever Not like this before I've lost control Why do I feel this way? I don't know I can't say Wish I could get to you today Yes I have prayed To make my pain and hurt go away Maybe I've brought All this upon myself Putting my worries on that damn shelf There lies my heart Torn all apart Bleeding there on the floor That's never happened Quite like that before I'm sinking fast Don't know how long I'll last Can't give up this fight It may not be right I'm in it to my end Even if it means my heart may not mend So I've laid it all out Now I pray again This time for my life to end Only way to make the hurt go away This pain and heartache I can no longer bear Yet I wake each morning God has chosen my life to spare Keep living and re-living Perhaps the punishment for all my sinning Thoughts of my kids and you all so far away Has been keeping me alive But the hurt gets worse and with it I no longer want to survive If he finally chooses though that it is my time to go I just want you to know Of you I can't let go And that someone out there Really does love you so So completely it hurts For the man you are And have always been Now go and expand Your horizons Meanwhile I'll be here still waiting Anticipating hearing from you I've explained as best as I can why Now I'm gonna go finish my cry I'm here still alone I'm still hurting now Still I know I've got to Get over the pain somehow But I don't know just Can anyone show me how