Human
My Faults bleed fear
Shout with anger
Ooze regret
Lavish in the art of feeling sorry for myself
Haunt my very existence
Nights cold
Days unbearing
My faults have defined me
For so long
Unable to let it all go
And grow
Stuck in this place
This dreed of resolution
But there are no answers
No orientation of my fear
Just put there by my own disregard
A staple in all I have lived by
For so many years
So many missed opportunities
I lacked recognination
I lost all drive
I accepted the things as they were
I failed to see what life had gave me
Destroyed it all in a span of two years
Collided with made up thoughts
Demons of such a magnitude
It broke me down
Took it all away
I blame others for my demise
But in essence there was no one to blame but me
Six months to the day what a change began
Not by choice
Not be grace
But by jealousy
So much not enough
It consumed me
I still can not speak of these nightmares
I created them this imagination of a reality
But the reality was I had it all
When I was young when I fell hard
To the truth in so many lies
It wasn't me they lashed out on
It wasn't me they felt threatened by
It was them the scared little boy or girl
We all nourish
We feed its bright lights
But to be real in a place of confusion is hard
I still haven't climb out of that pit
But as I continue on this journey
I learn so much
I manifest so much more
I start to see where I could be
And all leads to me
It all leads to my love for myself
And yes it seems hard But I know it is so worth the sacrifice
To be able to say I love the man I have become
I will get there and so shall you
If you can accept these faults
Because these faults are what make you and me human.
Copyright © David Grasby | Year Posted 2024
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