Human

My Faults bleed fear Shout with anger Ooze regret Lavish in the art of feeling sorry for myself Haunt my very existence Nights cold Days unbearing My faults have defined me For so long Unable to let it all go And grow Stuck in this place This dreed of resolution But there are no answers No orientation of my fear Just put there by my own disregard A staple in all I have lived by For so many years So many missed opportunities I lacked recognination I lost all drive I accepted the things as they were I failed to see what life had gave me Destroyed it all in a span of two years Collided with made up thoughts Demons of such a magnitude It broke me down Took it all away I blame others for my demise But in essence there was no one to blame but me Six months to the day what a change began Not by choice Not be grace But by jealousy So much not enough It consumed me I still can not speak of these nightmares I created them this imagination of a reality But the reality was I had it all When I was young when I fell hard To the truth in so many lies It wasn't me they lashed out on It wasn't me they felt threatened by It was them the scared little boy or girl We all nourish We feed its bright lights But to be real in a place of confusion is hard I still haven't climb out of that pit But as I continue on this journey I learn so much I manifest so much more I start to see where I could be And all leads to me It all leads to my love for myself And yes it seems hard But I know it is so worth the sacrifice To be to able say I love the man I have become I will get there and so shall you If you can accept these faults Because these faults are what make you and me human.