how I express my dementophobia fear of insanity

am I crazy then? I look at the doctor what could I say to influence his decision? Would it be better to not say a word? or better to chatter my heart out? Insanity looks insane, my soul says in a stern way my soul sometimes gets irritated with my self-talk this cannot be normal right? The doctor asks if I have any questions. Will questions help me look less sane or.. if I ask questions, will they hospitalize me? They do not hospitalize insane people, any more my self-talk says she gives me a kick in my right ankle. I yell “OW!” a bit too loudly. The doctor’s eyes bubble up. Am I insane or just creative? What is the difference really?