How Could You!!

How can u do this to me we are married and u betrayed me i love you and u cant except that how can u say that she is pretty and i tried to get u to say that to me so many times how can u be so cynical!! I know i made mistakes but it just feels that u are trying to get back at me like revenge how can u do this i love u but i have to be strong i lost everything for u and yet it feels like u don't appreciate me!! How could u its like i hate u with all my heart if u love some- one u have to prove to that person that person how do u expect me to forgive u yes i know it was just that u told her that she was beautiful but what the heck am i a piece of trash!! How can this be I LOVED YOU!! but know it just seems that i cant take this i do almost everything for you and yet u cant except that my life is like a fairy tale gone wrong u were my prince charming and now its like u are just another guy that hurts me !!! Does this not bother you how can love just fade away yes you say that u still love me and you are sorry but how can i trust u its like my world just came crashing down!!! How do you forgive some one that lies to you and in your face!! You know i fell like forgiving you cause the baby but i just cant live a lie its like am just going to make my life a living H*ll and how can i do that to my baby!! I LOVE YOU so much even more then you can imagine and i would do stuff for you that only me and you know about and yet u dont appreciate me !!! How can this be!!! But like they say life goes on i know that it going to take work for me to forgive but what more do i have!! Everything was all gone and know my life is just there how do i forgive if i know in my heart that am going to have this in my mind all the time when i look at you and see when ur on your phone or computer am going to be thinking is he telling that girl she is prettier than me!!! It will take a lot of time to trust you again But what more can i do you are the only thing i have right know i have no where to go so what more can i do life goes on !! I just need to know one thing NEXT time all H*ll will break loose and we will See how you do that cause i will live you with no word and you will never be able too see your kid!!