HOW CAN I PRETEND : PART 1

HOW CAN I PRETEND ? PART 1 How can I pretend when flutters across my chest only prickle as your thought arrives with doubt or hope What is hope anyway ? A flimsy wish built upon a matrix I no longer attune to as Mantis explores my device How can I pretend when staring at a mouldy ceiling at 3am listening to God giving instructions in damp winter’s Grace claiming my ring finger with a tree-agate circle I barely comprehend How can I pretend when I no longer traverse backwaters or corridors waiting for an “Ay” or respond to voices at iron gate gathering yellow rays when they cannot manifest their own When Source gifts a sequinned heart I’ve remembered and released with poise writhing burn memories Ouma Na scalded both our faces tripping over frayed mat carrying pot of boiling bath soak fire and water making war on newly painted wall Pretence knows no fat it has to drown down mouse drain Meridians released encoded nodes holding forgotten memories of burnt hair sticking papyrus skin as I was bundled into double-decker bus which almost did not arrive hustled to a clinic outside dusty township fences All I could see was Ouma’s faraway Malaysian apertures staring aghast thinking the fault was hers as Mother dreamt Piscean dreams in new maisonette on an old bed upstairs Pretence lies coffined cold ©GhairoDanielsPoetry& Song2024