Holding On To My Fears

In my reality He is my fantasy Teasing me every waking moment Tempting me With his memory In the night So why does needing him Feel so damn right Can't escape this God knows I've tried Won't even go there About how many times for him I've cried My life has had plenty of surprises But this is the biggest of all What is God really trying to do Make me fall Why put anyone Through all this pain and sorrow Instead of hiding away I should be living like There's no tomorrow I should be there with him Letting him know With him I want to begin again Our love don't know bounds And it has never known an end I'm afraid of what lies ahead Then if I don't find out there will be more regrets I long to have him here in my bed His sweet kisses and soft touch That I deeply miss so much But I'm here crying and such Eyes so swelled I'm blinded with tears Do I face them once and for all Or continue to live this way Holding on to my fears