Here

HERE

She lay in bed alone at night 
and wonder why she's here
In a world that's so uncool
Where people just don't care

She do so much for everyone 
But her heart's still so sore
Just a little bit of kindness
Is all she's been looking for

Why was she born
And what's the reason she's here
Cause, in the end, it comes down to nothing
When we turn to dust and disappear

She wish her dad was here
But he left when she only seven
He made her feel safe
But now he is in heaven

He went to fight a war
To save others while leaving her home
But she never saw his smile again
Cause he never made it back home

Her mother was a fighter
She kept the kitchen warm
Till she close her eyes one night
And all her strength was gone

The flowers on her grave
Must be dried out today
Because It's winter 
And under the cold earth, her body lay

 she can feel them sometimes
When she goes the cemetery
It's where she goes for her family reunion
With her mummy and daddy

She wanted to be with them too
But when god thinks its time
She tries to find a little comfort
With cigarettes and bottles of wine

She got married to a man much older
To fill the void of the missing father figure
But she divorce him a little while after
Because he was an abuser

There is so much hurt she feel
with so much anger strapped inside.
And life seems to be taking her on a cliff
She wish she had wings to spread them and fly

She have no one to talk to
She's so confused and alone
She wish there was a direct line to heaven
So she can talk to mummy and daddy on the phone

Just like any little girl,
 she had dreams of being a beautiful princess
And a prince would come riding in on his white horse
And take her to his castle full of love and happiness

But she is a princess today
A princess of nothing good to come
A princess of hopeless despair
In the world where she wishes she would disappear from

She puts on a smile
A fake smile she puts on for you
But inside her soul is crying
And there's nothing she can do

She could never trust in anyone
Falling in love was out of her mind
She accepted that a life alone
Was her faith in god being kind

Why did her life turn out like this
While others don't have a worry
She tells no one how she feels
Cause she's not looking for pity or sorry

She once got the courage to go to church
But the doors was close
So she turn and never went back
Maybe it would have made a difference
But now no one will ever know

What's the reason, she's here 
What's the reason or purpose she's living for
She feels like this walk on rug
that's thrown on the floor

She lay in bed and wonder 
what I'm really doing here
Can I wake up from this dream
Can I please just disappear

She started to cry 
And then she started to smile
She felt her mummy and daddy next to her in the bed
And she lay in the middle just like when she was a child

Her mother's empty medicines bottles on the bed next to her
She closes her eyes and felt  the hug of her parents
And she went to them in the hereafter

She was beautiful and simple some say
When they talk about her 
Where ever people gathers
In the church, streets corners, and bars

No more sun 
No more rain
It's like she never was here
The girl with so much hidden pain

Flowers grew on their graves
Colors of red yellow and blue
And the sun shines down on the grass
And glistens on the morning dew

Copyright © Kasim Ishmael | Year Posted 2017

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