Heavy Sadness

What are people going to think When I’m dead on the floor And my hands are wrapped around my spine I exposed my weaknesses All crumbled and broke A sadder sight when gone And even with the lights faded to black I’ll still care what people think Even when I can’t blink Nerves will still choke me out At least I won’t see Mom cry But I still have to escape Knowing she’s left behind A sad drop in a pool of anxieties Each one blacker than the rest All working together to drown me I can’t float by any more Both paths of my future void of light Eternal misery, forever and ever