Heaven nor hell

Last few years gone by Time seems to fly. Of late as is fate I am seeing my due date My expiration time is coming due But I do not feel blue My body is so tired My wires are coming unwired Chest been messing with me Time is something I will not see Older than I thought I would ever be Have gathered all my writings here Cause I have fear My time is near I wish for no Dr. to fix me This is how it should be Of this world I do not belong Same ol song Wherever I go So I know It is always the same No one do I blame I have not taken my meds in a year I shed no tear I have seen things many never will Still People toss me aside So I hide The lost and lonely is where I abide I have tried To do right But seems such a fight I want nothing at all Life shudders and starts to stall Fall to my knees No one there to hear my pleas Strength ebbing fast Maybe it is my time at last Heart Feel it is coming apart Breath hurts to come out I try to shout Lights fade Through the darkness I wade My time is at hand I do understand I awake A breath I take I fear I'm still here How can that be Far as I can see I am wanted no where Seems so unfair But I can see why This is what makes me cry No human wants me around So I have found Heaven nor hell,.. want me not So in this hell I rot