Heart beats

I'm going to have a heart attack, the day is coming soon It's a fact iv come to deal with, I know I'm not immune One day I will fall to the ground, My life will be over, the words in my head will be left unsaid I went to the emergency room yesterday chest pains getting worse GTN nor aspirin could help my family curse They said my ECG was still abnormal Valves at fault, his genes at play, I am not immortal Iv been so upset since the doctor told me my fate That upset lead to sickness, I am in an awful state But when they told me yesterday my valves are broken I cried myself to x-ray & wished they both had spoken In my 20's I partied a lot without a second thought I did what every uni student does, I put my body through shock But in reality that life was short lived 15 years ago that was, its a life I'm glad I lived But whilst in the hospital I blamed my broken valves on that I thought the partying I did will now give me a heart attack But then I realised it wasn't my fault And it should not be a personal assault They told me I have unstable angina and that more needs to be done Likely stents too, but when I think of that I want to run They are treating me for genetic coronary disease A gene he gave me id rather he would keep I cried last night because I didn't want this pain Angina and a heart attack will be my fate When I take my GTN me and him are bonded Knowing his health history is all I wanted A life of forewarning was denied to me But until I have all the facts neither of them will ever see The pain I go though every day All caused by his faulty genes he gave I am going to have a heart attack the date is unknown I will not make it if I am not found Words that need to be said will die with me They both would win, their satisfaction you will see But until then I will keep doing The things I need too to keep my heart ticking I wish someone would call to say hello Just so I can tell them this story of woe Yesterday I thought my time was at the end I said goodbye not knowing if Id see my husband again this time at least no heart attack ended it So for now their secrets and lies are kept somewhere secret A locket I keep just for them the trauma and lies locked and hidden within I will open it when I can fight back Until then, well, I need to stay alive A heart attack is not needed, I need to fight They will not win this terrible game One i was entered into without my say I will have a heart attack one day I HAVE to win this game