He Will Miss It All

My big brother is locked away for taking away a child's innocence even in prison he can't hide from the shame it will be something he will always have to live with I hope he knows that I feel no remorse and that this poem is just a reminder to myself of what he would have been able to see if he hadn't done that deed He will miss his daughters smiles and even though he did the damage he will definitely miss their frowns I however will always manage I did without him for years and incarceration doesn't mean that I am going to shed any tears because truthfully he deserves the years He will miss the liquor bottle and I know that's not a positive thing I'm hoping that locking him away will some how make him clean He will miss his son who hasn't yet even turn one I will miss my nephew because without my brother the mother won't come I know he surely missed the altercation and the way that my family hurt he missed the disgust on my mother's face when she found out what her son was really worth I know he will miss me his self proclaimed favorite sister but I just want to banish him from my mind, I'd take a pistol to the head just to delete his memories If only it didn't end in death I would contemplate anything to forget To forget that I care because even if I bottle it up these feelings are still there I can't deny that I love him or that I worry about his well being I was the one to always give him the benefit of the doubt when no one would hear him but now I shout " why did you have to do this"? you always were a screw up but this time the metal bars have clanked down for a while and you will miss it all I hope you know this