He Will Miss It All
My big brother is locked away
for taking away a child's innocence
even in prison he can't hide from the shame
it will be something he will always have to live with
I hope he knows that I feel no remorse
and that this poem is just a reminder to myself
of what he would have been able to see
if he hadn't done that deed
He will miss his daughters smiles
and even though he did the damage
he will definitely miss their frowns
I however will always manage
I did without him for years
and incarceration doesn't mean
that I am going to shed any tears
because truthfully he deserves the years
He will miss the liquor bottle
and I know that's not a positive thing
I'm hoping that locking him away will
some how make him clean
He will miss his son
who hasn't yet even turn one
I will miss my nephew because
without my brother the mother won't come
I know he surely missed the altercation
and the way that my family hurt
he missed the disgust on my mother's face
when she found out what her son
was really worth
I know he will miss me
his self proclaimed favorite sister
but I just want to banish him from
my mind, I'd take a pistol to the head
just to delete his memories
If only it didn't end in death
I would contemplate anything to forget
To forget that I care
because even if I bottle it up
these feelings are still there
I can't deny that I love him
or that I worry about his well being
I was the one to always give him
the benefit of the doubt when
no one would hear him
but now I shout
" why did you have to do this"?
you always were a screw up
but this time the metal bars
have clanked down for a while
and you will miss it all
I hope you know this
Copyright © Shahana Jackson | Year Posted 2009
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