He Didn'T Leave Much

He Didn’t Leave Much


He didn’t  leave much, never had much.
His “stuff” mostly fit in one drawer of the
old dresser.  His world a daily grind of
rising at five AM, walking to his first job.
Then at five PM, walking from his first job
to his second job.

I don’t ever remember him being happy.
I know that he must have had some happiness
in his life, but it was never apparent to me.
He was intelligent, if not educated.  He was
pretty much a non-participant in my life.
An Irish immigrant, he knew little of the
games his children loved, although I think
he feigned an interest at times.  I imagine
these moments were his attempts to form
something of a bond with children who
knew little or nothing about their ancestors,
their history, their heredity.

The mystery of the man still shadows me
today.  Who was he – really.  There were
stories of Ireland and the IRA, of farms
and family, a family we never met.
As he grew older, he would become
melancholy at times and meander through
memories fueled by a bottle of Irish Whiskey.
He would play the accordion.  His eyes would
sparkle as he played, as if he had gone back to
a different time, a kinder place.

Perhaps the mystery of the man is a better
legacy than knowing all the gritty details of
his loves and loses, his heartaches, his
youthful experiences.  What were his secrets,
and why were they kept?

I wonder – when he left Ireland –
if he wept.


John G. Lawless
5/1/2014
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Nehls Avatar
June 12, 2014 at 8:41 AM
Hello John. Sounds to me like he left a lot more than this poem can convey. Between and behind those lines is where the story is told. You have a lot to be thankful for, my friend. Thanks for sharing these thoughts. Nicely done.... Robert.
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June 11, 2014 at 10:24 PM
John, Congratulations, a wonderful and heartfelt win. Love ~LINDA
Onclaud Avatar
June 10, 2014 at 7:36 PM
so touching, john...a greeat win!.. huggs
Mehta Avatar
June 9, 2014 at 10:52 PM
Nicely done. congrats on the win, John
Johnson Avatar
June 9, 2014 at 7:13 PM
This is sad in that your questions came too late to be answered. but your dad loved you I am sure. Love, Joyce
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