Harsh Reason To Live

I want everyone to go but still someone stay,. How ironic is this but don't know why I feel this way!! Aggressive and stone-hearted is what people say,. I want to be like this but hate myself this way!! Feel like sleeping and NEVER waking up every single day, but I don't wanna be coward, I don't wanna run away. When I wake up all the memories replay, Uncontrollable thoughts about how was I treated everyday. And now I am afraid that she will also betray,. I say I don't care but I know I won't feel okay. People have always screwed me, given me orders but now I am not here to obey. I promise I will create that BRUTAL game which all those oppressors HAVE TO PLAY!!!!