Happy

I used to remember a time when I couldn't see anything in the mirror that I liked... not even in the inside. I felt shattered. My world was bruised. I was in a daze so confused. My heart was way to fragile and it would break and splattered all over the floor. I had so little time and I had to put those pieces back together. I was in a bubble for a long time. A shell that was merely bringing me down. I used it whenever I didn't want to get hurt, but it always seemed to back fire. I was always worse than what I expected. Lying on the ground... wishing god would take me now. Do you even know what that state of mind feels like. I had no control over my smile I was forever imprisoned in my frown. I felt like I had a thousand enemies and no one was there to defend me. Even the my shadow was trying to hurt me. Every day felt like years... I couldn't breath a moment without my heart feeling sharp intense pains. Not from anything medical just the feeling of leaving my house in the morning was enough. Just the feeling of feeling lonely was enough. Just the feeling of feeling weak and afraid was enough to make me feel insane. I was at the breaking point until an angel pulled me back again. She told me everything would be allright and brought me into her world and made everything bright. I truly love and appreciate all she's done. Because of her I am now who I am. What I am is happy. Happy to be me. Happy from the inside out and when I look in the mirror now I smile... I am now free.