Half Alive

Days fly Weeks pass by Still I cry Everything I knew was nothing more then a pretty lie So much pain trapped inside You killed my dream of one day becoming your bride You took me for a ride but in the end we crashed and died But yet somehow I am still alive I should have never let you drive my soul You broke my heart when you lost control I see the many pieces shattered across the floor and wonder who will make it whole once more? You never really loved me that I know for sure You treated me like a infectious spore When all I ever wanted was to be loved and adored If only what we had could be restored Oh what I would give to hear you say "I love you" once more But that would be a under score Look at what you did to me! You left me along in this world with no one to comfort me I had much rather have taken a blow to the knee or a shot to the head I know I am alive but it feels like I'm dead To me you were like my daily bread But now that your gone the pain is widespread Even in my bed my dreams are haunted by you If heart breaking was a crime I would sue It's everything I can do just to make it through each day I wish the memories would just fade and go away But in my mind they stay Your name rings in my head and it is foul like something decayed I hate feeling so along and betrayed I wonder when someone will notice and come to my aid Like a blade you cut me into They say time heals all wounds but that is a lie Time could never heal the pain I feel inside I have tried but the pain will not subside In you I use to confided but now I run and hide You turned out to be such a ugly guy How can you just stare at me with your glass eyes and not feel a thing? You bring nothing but shame but yet you do not care I look at you in despair and swear that one day you will pay God forbid that you do the next one the same way I look forward to the day when someone else will come stray into my life perhaps they will not cause me so much pain and strife I know I could make a good wife but for now I must live half alive.