Growing Pains Now Older Wiser Smarter Reunion

Funny how now looking back upon the privilege of youth How and what we once perceived and thought our youthful selves to be we actually weren't in reality Simply based upon whosoever social circle of popular group we sought to converts opinion Which was actually in effect a noose we placed around our neck and a feckless exercise in self sabotage Because back then I believed I was fat but cannot find a single picture of myself resembling that because I actually wasn't Thought I was ugly only later to be told I was in fact thought of instead as not at all bad looking Didn't think I was in anyway cool but yet hung out with the cool kid's Wasn't interested in school so assumed I was dumb Was thought of as being funny which I only just recently found out I supposedly am So was perennially shy lacked self-confidence didn't wish to be noticed or stand out If only I knew what I know now I probably wouldn't have wasted what should have been the best times of my life Because now that I am older I don't really care much about anything or place my worth in what other people think of me One thing is for sure though something's never change Like the fact I am still the same stupid idiot I was back then and have always been Only difference being now is I should be old enough to know better