Grieving Is Difficult

I wish I could rewind time, but would that make a difference? I often relive the pain i've caused like guilt on repeat, a reel that won't shut off. It's time to start realizing all this regret is consuming me alive. I need a way to let it go so my insides don't bring me to my own demise. Maybe acknowledging the fact that there are no do-overs only new tomorrows. With every sun break a moon comes awake, that's usually when I can feel all the weight. I hope by letting the past go, thinking about you won't feel so terrible. I dream of the day when I can laugh at things we used to do, and enjoy all the moments we shared instead of crying about you. I want to not feel this heavy heartache, so again I will try this grieving a different way.