Giving Up
I'VE BEEN HELD BACK
TIED TO THE REINS OF SELF PITTY
LOOKING BACK AT MY LIFE NOW
I KNOW IT WAS NEVER PRETTY
IT CROSSES MY MIND
FROM TIME TO TIME
NEVER THOUGHT IT COULD BE REWOUND
THIS PATH OF MINE
MEMORIES FILLED WITH PAIN
CAUSED BY SELFISH NEGLECTS
AND NOW IT RAINS
JUST OUT OF DISRESPECT
I CURSE AT THE SKY
ASKING …WHY GIVE ME THIS BURDEN
NOT KNOWING THAT DEEP INSIDE
IT ONLY KEEPS ON HURTIN……..
I WAKE UP….
AND I WANT TO QUIT
WASH MY FACE
AND SEE THAT AM STILL JUST FULL OF IT
THINKING THAT THIS MIRROR IS LYING
LOOK AT THE TEARS FALLING
WONDER WHY I NEVER KEPT TRYING
AND NOW I FEEL LIKE DEATH’S STALLING
CALLING… THE WRONG NAME…..
MY TURN NEVER COMES…
AND IT ONLY STARTS TO RAIN
SUFFERING BUT HAS JUST BEGUN
AND I RUN… TRY TO ESCAPE THIS FAITH
LIVE OR DIE… WHAT SHOULD I CHOOSE
DECIDE BEFORE IT’S TOO LATE
AND WHAT IF I REFUSE
DO I THROW MYSELF OFF THE CLIFF
BURN MYSELF ALIVE
BUT THAT’S A QUESTION OF WHAT IF…
AND WHAT IF I SURVIVE
AND THE END NEVER ARRIVES
WILL I ONLY SUFFER MORE TORTURE
ENDURE A LIFETIME OF PAIN
TO HELL WITH THE FUTURE!
HERE IS WHERE I WANT TO REMAIN….
DIE HERE AND NOW…
THIS TIME AND PLACE
NO LONGER DO I WANT TO GROW…
EITHER WAY NO ONE WILL REMEMBER MY FACE!!!!
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