Gateway to past regrets
I thought that I had matured enought to have the strenght within me
To look and accept reality
I thought I could look into the eyes of past and accept that it has passed
Old camera i haven’t picked up in months is my only gateway to past regrets and memmories
Vision blured with tears
I can’t get past more than a second of every memory
I used to have beautiful people in my life
i never could’ve thought that I’ll be looking back with tears so soon
I look back at the way i used so be
kind and inoccent
I wasnt as bad as i thought i was
I looked alright and didnt hurt anyone
Now i stare at myself and keep thinking
How did this happen to me?
Within a year I became someone I can never dare to look at
I became something past me wouldve laughted at
Dates on the memories made me want to roll onto the floor
I never could’ve thought that time could be so teribbly unkind
I would give away everything to go back and fix everything
Body trembles
I’m not sure why
I might actually be sick or is it the sickness of the regret that i’ve been avoiding for so long
Can’t i prolong my easy mind for just a little while?
Until regrets of past come to burn me at the steak
One thing i can never understand
How did i manage to ruin everything i used to have?
I miss the people and the places
I miss the music and the dances
I miss the smell of smoke and liqour
I miss the late trains in the middle of the night
Copyright © Zhenya Tryp | Year Posted 2025
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