Alex Duffy Poet Free verse

Frustrations and Failed Suicide Attempts

Depression can't be seen, yet he follows me everywhere
You can't see him beating me down and taking away my strength
I feel it everyday, he makes me act up and brings me to tears
He laughs at me for my frustrations and failed suicide attempts

I was numb for so long, but I'm beginning to feel this
I just want to be normal without any mental illness
I'm tired of depression, Anxiety and bipolar, I just need a rest
At 17, I took an overdose of pills to try and stop my beating chest

I was traumatized from my childhood, and wanted to end the pain
I self-harmed daily to try and mend my pain
I got addicted to the feeling, I was labelled a freak, weirdo, and called much worse
Even though I didn't have a leg to stand on, I still tried to move my foot first

I started self-harming at 14, and hid it for 2 years so how could I be an attention seeker?
Does being open and honest about these feelings make me weaker?
People bring my name up thinking I don't hear
The thing is, they bring my name up, I just don't care

I'm tired of battling demons that can't be beat
Why is it if I attack depression it's me who bleeds?
Maybe I should have kept this to myself, maybe it was too deep to share
I survived my suicide attempts, so I guess someone or something needs me here

Depression can't be seen, yet he follows me everywhere
You can't see him beating me down and taking away my strength
I feel it everyday, he makes me act up and brings me to tears
He laughs at me for my frustrations and failed suicide attempts

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Elizabeth Kinch June 13, 2017 at 1:46 PM Oh I want to hug you.

Akkina Downing June 12, 2017 at 8:53 PM I think it's very good that you're open about it. It's no joke to feel beaten by depression. I'm just sorry no one can't help you. I will say a prayer for you. Prayers are very powerful. Let God into your life, Alex. You will feel His love if you let Him in. Don't give up Kiddo, keep pushing for the brighter stars, let your mind wander on beautiful things that you can do. Go for runs and hikes if you can. Fishing and other outdoors fun. Keep yourself busy and be strong and think positive always. Alex Duffy June 13, 2017 at 5:09 AM Thank you, I've found out sharing/writing about it, is better than holding it in. Thank you I appreciate it, I won't give up, I will try my best to stay busy and try enjoy life :)