From Confusion To Surrender

I am but feeling quite alone wishing deep in my heart to come back home. What does one do when one feels this despair in these circumstances that surround him, but can’t compare? I know there is a light embedded in this shell I know there is hope that surfaces, but at times it’s hard to tell. But I now feel those things that can diminish the light for I can’t even see the unknown, as I look up at the stars on this disturbing night. And in the gloom, in the turmoil that exists I fight that which they tell me I should not resist. It is with an intent that does not seem to die as I keep asking that question, “Why?” I choose to be, I chose this course but it is confusion that I feel the most. For I have this need to see, to hear, to understand these perplexing circumstances here at hand. But who am I, and who are you? Just souls intent on seeing this through. And hoping for a chance to see that day when all is calm, and that which is, is gone away.